Hope that heart of yours is okay, baby.
I’ll update soon.
And I hate the fact that my heart doesn’t grow and I hate the smell of cigarette smoke. And I hate old movies unless they make me cry and I hate the jerk that you’ve turned out to be. And I hate the sand that holds back the seas and I hate the fact that you don’t love me for me.
time passes, even when it seems impossible.
even when each tick of the second hand
aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. it passes unevenly,
in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. even for me.
-New Moon
In a way, it was sort of depressing, too, because you kept wondering what the hell would happen to all of them. When they got out of school and college, I mean. You figured most of them would probably marry dopey guys. Guys that always talk about how many miles they get to a gallon in their goddamn cars. Guys that get sore and childish as hell if you beat them at golf, or even just some stupid game like ping-pong. Guys that are very mean. Guys that never read books. Guys that are very boring.
Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren’t you anymore? If you were suddenly gone, how would your world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There’s nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the Ocean. It’s deep and dark and bigger than all of us. And pain is like a thief in the night. Quiet. Persistent. Unfair. Diminished by time and faith and love
The worst lies are the lies we tell ourselves. We live in denial of what we do, even what we think. We do this because we’re afraid. We fear we will not find love, and when we find it we fear we’ll lose it. We fear that if we do not have love we will be unhappy
I’m hardly capable of half the damage that I would like to do.
I could swear that I don’t care,
But you know I’m too full of shit to think this through.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We’ve learned how to make a living but not a life. We’ve added years to life, not life to years.
“People hide their truest nature. I understood that; I even applauded it. What sort of world would it be if people bled all over the sidewalks, if they wept under trees, smacked whomever they despised, kissed strangers, revealed themselves?”
“we’re so arrogant, aren’t we? so afraid of age, we do everything we can to prevent it. we don’t realize what a privilege it is to grow old with someone. someone who doesn’t drive you to commit murder or doesn’t humiliate you beyond repair.”
– ps. i love you
You have options. You can either continue to be miserable or you can just stop being angry at everyone and accept the way things are. Allow yourself to live.
If you desire love in your life, cultivate it yourself, in your own dreams and desires, in the mark you want to make during your brief span here, in the lessons learned, in the smiles as much as the scars. Fill yourself up with love, rather than waiting for someone to do it for you.
There have been lots of cars in my driveway & lots of boys on my couch. I’ve toyed with bad boys, mamma’s boys, & country boys. Been broken by a few & broken a few myself. I’ve never said “I love you” & never had the need. I’ve been the rebound, the challenge, the fall back, & the girlfriend. I’ve been the mistake & the correction. One day someone will love me for what I’ve been & what I am, where I’ve been & where I am; one day, someone will love me for me
So I’ve been watching “The Haunted” on Animal Planet for like 3 hours and I don’t know why, but it freaks me the fuck out. The only time I’ve had something freaky happen to me was my friend and I rang her doorbell, her dog barked, and a voice went, “McGuire, shh.” (McGuire’s her dog’s name.) We thought it was her 4 year old sister and didn’t think anything of it until we went in and there was no one home. There was no TV on at all and the house was completely silent. We both had heard it outside and didn’t say anything until we walked in the house.
-Does anyone believe in this paranormal things or have stories about it?
If you’re walking down the right path and you’re willing to keep walking, eventually you’ll make progress
I had always thought of myself as aware and thoughtful, but it had occurred to me that most people believed this of themselves. Even as they cheated on their lovers and averted their eyes from the homeless. You could ask a wife beater if he was a good person and he’d probably say yes.
And fuck me if I say somethin you don’t wanna hear And fuck me if you only hear what you wanna hear Fuck me if I care but I’m not leaving here.
May the love hidden deep inside your heart find the love waiting in your dreams. May the laughter that you find in your tomorrow wipe away the pain you find in your yesterdays.
People can be so cold, they will hurt you, and desert you, they will take your soul if you let them, so don’t you let them
Websites you must check out:
http://www.givesmehope.com
http://www.thehungersite.com
‘Gives me hope’.com is probably the exact opposite of ‘fuck my life’.com. For anyone who thinks the world is only full of shitty, selfish assholes, it makes me smile.
Go on the hunger site. All you have to do is click one button and sponsers give 1 cup of food to people without it. I made it my homepage so I do it everytime I get online. Makes you put your life in perspective.
The hurt began to fade and it was easier to just let go. At least I thought it was. But in every boy I met in the next few years, I found myself looking for you, and when the feelings got too strong I’d write you another letter. But I never sent them, in fear of what I might find. By then, you’d gone on with your life and I didn’t want to think about you loving someone else. I wanted to remember us like we were that summer. I didn’t want to ever forget that
-Nicholas Sparks
An insult didn’t have to be shouted at you to make you bleed; a vow didn’t have to be whispered to make you believe it. Hold a thought in your head and that was enough to change the actions of anyone and anything that crossed your path.
-The Tenth Circle; Jodi Picoult
Sometimes it seems like we’re all living in some kind of prison. And the crime is how much we hate ourselves. It’s good to get really dressed up once in a while and admit the truth: that when you really look closely, people are so strange and so complicated that they’re actually…beautiful. Possibly even me.
– My So Called Life
I used to think that when I got older, the world would make so much more sense. But you know what? The older I get, the more confusing it is to me. The more complicated it is. Harder. You’d think we’d be getting better at it. But there’s just more and more chaos. The pieces – they’re everywhere. And nobody knows what to do about it. I find myself grasping, Nick. You know that feeling? That feeling when you just want the right thing to fall into the right place, not only because it’s right, but because it would mean that such a thing is still possible? I want to believe that.
-Nick and Norahs Infinite Playlist
To make the journey and not fall deeply in love….well you havent lived a life at all. But you have to try cause if you havent tried, you havent lived.
-Meet Joe Black
My heart didn’t break into a thousand pieces after he left. Instead, I realized all the things he didn’t do. He didn’t want to hear my stories. He didn’t ask me questions. He didn’t smile when I was talking to him. He didn’t hug me out of the blue to make me feel good. His hugs were always a preamble to something else and after he was gone, I wondered if he ever knew me at all.
-Love, Cajun Style ; Diane Les Becquets
The truth was, I knew, after all those flat January days, that I deserved better. I deserved “I love you”s, and kiwi fruits, and flowers, and warriors coming to my door, besotted with love. I deserved pictures of my face in a million expressions and the warmth of a baby’s kick under my hand. I deserved to grow, and to change, and to become all the girls I could ever be in the course of my life, each one better than the last.
-Someone Like You ; Sarah Dessen
You fall in love with someone because of the tilt of his smile, or because he could make you laugh, or in this case, because he made you believe you were the only one who could save him
-Picture Perfect ; Jodi Picoult
You don’t know what goes on in anyone’s life but your own. And when you mess with one part of a person’s life, you’re not messing with just that part. Unfortunately, you can’t be that precise and selective. When you mess with one part of a person’s life, you’re messing with their entire life.
And just because you keep something a secret doesn’t mean it never happened. No matter how much you want that to be true.
-Vanishing Act
I want to believe in it all again-in art, fate, and love. And I want to believe that I’ve made the right choice and that I’m on the right path and there’s still time to fix the mistakes that I’ve made. And I guess I want hope.
Okay so does anyone else think this Jersey Shore show on MTV is pure unintentional comedic genious? Absolutely hilarious. If you 1. Are not a Guido or Guidette, and 2. Think these people are complete wastes of air, but so dumb it’s hilarious, then read this guys blog. It’s Gold.
I think you want to be beautiful in someone’s eyes, you want to be seen. Like if I shot off fireworks and no one was there to watch them, and I closed my eyes, they become beautiful in being seen. Maybe you’re not supposed to be beautiful to be seen, you just have to be seen as beautiful, by someone, by one person.
Just remember, the same as a spectacular Vogue magazine, remember that no matter how close you follow the jumps: Continued on page whatever. No matter how careful you are, there`s going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under you.
So maybe it doesn’t really matter if you wear your heart on your sleeve or if you lock it up in a box away from the world, because in the end, everyone gets hurt.
Most of our lives are a series of images,
They pass us by like towns on a highway.
But sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens
And we know that this instant is more
than a fleeting image.
We know that this moment, every part of it,
Will live on forever.
What would you leave behind when all your fields are dead?
When your territories are dried out and your cities drowned and swept
What would you leave behind when those who bear your name
Are born in that place that you wrecked?
What would you leave behind when you’re no longer there?
No Longer There – The Cat Empire
And yet, I found I could survive. I was alert, I felt the pain – the aching loss that radiated out from my chest, sending wracking waves of hurt through my limbs and head – but it was manageable. I could live through t. It didn’t feel like the pain had weakened over time, rather that I’d grown strong enough to bear it.
life’s too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don’t, and believe that everything happens for a reason. if you get a chance, take it. if it changes your life, let it. nobody said it would be easy; they just promised it would be worth it.
It seems like the chaos of this world is accelerating, but so is the beauty in the consciousness of more and more people.
I built up the walls one break at a time.
We broke down the walls one brick at a time.
But infatuation cuts quick and you sharpen the knife.
A smile can only get you so far, blue eyed suicide.
I was willing to throw it all away but you couldn’t decide.
A smile can only get you so far, blue eyed suicide.
These walls will be higher next time you try to break them and break in.
Your existence it burns my eyes.
Everytime I try and close them.
I thought that things were different this time around.
I thought I found someone who meant what they said.
Beyond four letters, beyond four letters.
I guess I thought that things were different this time around
Okayy, so who knows how to make some seriously good grilled cheese? I’m pregnant and craving some, but I don’t know how. I know, a future mom who has no idea how to make the simpliest meal ever.
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